it's not always rainbows and butterflies

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Once upon a time, in a land far far away, lived a prince…

And he really was charming. Maybe it something in the way he smiled, but you could never help but smile back. That’s if you hadn’t smiled at him first of course. Most people smiled the moment they saw him, I guess they were just glad to see him. Maybe he was one of those people who instantly made you smile, even if you just said a quick hello. And not one of those smiles that you put on for show, that are wiped away again in a moment. You would have one of the smiles on your face for the rest of the day, one of the ones that occasionally break out into a massive grin. One of the ones that light up your whole face. Maybe it was they way in which he talked to you. Or the things he said. This may be a fairytale, but this does not mean that people were perfect. And neither was he. And yet you could never be angry at him for long, if you even became angry in the first place. I suppose he just knew all the right things to say. I did tell you he was charming. A quick apology, a flash of that smile. He’d look you in the eyes and give you a quick hug. (Yes, you could even hug members of the royal family once upon a time). And then all would be forgiven. Maybe everybody was too kind, giving out too many chances. Or maybe it was just him.

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Hey there,

Another heart-broken teen,

Where’s that smile?

I’ve not seen it in a while,

So tell me, how have you been?

And if the world’s being mean,

Just take that frown,

And turn it upside down,

‘Cos your smile is the sweetest,

I’ve ever seen

REMEMBER

Remember when you’d see me,

Remember when you’d smile,

Now I understand why that hasn’t happened in a while,

It’s not so much dislike,

It’s more that you don’t care,

It doesn’t really matter to you whether or not I’m there,

There’s an opposite to love,

And the opposite’s not hate,

It’s this complete indifference to whether or not we’re mates,

But I can’t make you feel something,

If there’s nothing there to feel,

I just hope that in time this pain will start to heal,

And walking down the corridor,

Your eyes won’t pick me out,

They carry on straight past me, don’t notice I’m about,

There was a time I’d greet you,

Now I keep it in my head,

You’re ready with your greetings too, but for someone else instead,

So next time I see you,

I won’t say anything out loud,

Because although we were once friends, I’ve become one of the crowd.

Probably add some more to this later…

I hold it together for so long,

Then I change the album,

Change the song,

And every line, it speaks of you,

And everything we’ll never do.

Do I care? The answer is maybe,

Let me explain for the truth is, baby,

I think about you all the time,

There’s barely a moment when you don’t cross my mind,

I can play back each moment we ever had,

But the thing is baby, they don’t make me sad,

And I really think you need to know,

You won’t find me crying all alone,

You won’t find me waiting by your door,

I just don’t miss you any more,

Thinking of you doesn’t bring back the pain,

Though I know those times won’t happen again,

From now on I’ll leave them in the past,

For I always knew they wouldn’t last,

So I finally accept all the feelings have gone,

And now, at last, I’ve also moved on.

Regret

There’s this thing called regret,

That won’t let us forget,

The things that we shouldn’t have done,

Or the things that we should,

But now it’s no good,

Either way we couldn’t have won,

Though it’s all in the past,

These feelings still last,

As we play back the chances we had,

The things that we said,

Those that stayed in our head,

Could have stopped this from being so bad.

This is it, one last stand,

So reach out, shake my hand,

One last chance to reconcile,

Prove that it was worth the while,

All the waiting and the tears,

Discovering my greatest fears,

For I’m afraid you will forget,

What we had, or you’ll regret,

Making yourself known to me,

And if apart we’re meant to be,

Let’s not end our friendship so,

As strangers or worse a foe,

Let’s put it all behind us now,

And maybe in time you’ll remember how,

We used to talk so easily,

Tell the truth, and just be free,

There were no secrets, or no lies,

I saw your heart through your eyes,

I know that love does rarely last,

And often it leaves too fast,

But I did believe you’d be a friend,

For many years, until the end,

Just goes to show, how things can change,

From love to hate, there’s quite a range,

But I don’t want to end like this,

And all because a stupid kiss,

So please accept this apology,

For I can say quite easily,

I don’t care about who’s right or wrong,

I just know where I belong,

So when we pass, don’t look away,

There’s so many things I wish to say,

Let’s be friends once again,

‘Cause it would cause me too much pain,

If you act like we had never met,

For it means you really did forget.

She walks in the room and your eyes light up, i catch you smiling to yourself, what i’d give to see you smiling like that, but cos of me, not anyone else, she’s got the perfect hair and the perfect mouth, you’re dying for just one kiss, you’re so focussed on her, i leave the room, and know i won’t be missed, i could never compete, for you love her so, and guess you always will, but if one day you remember me, i’m waiting for you still.